Nothing but :)'s

I cannot say this any better... I.Feel.GOOD... I really REALLY do... My wife has noticed a difference, my children have noticed a difference, heck even my daughters hamsters have noticed a difference (don't ask, but they let me hold them now without going all red eyed and devilish on me continually trying to bite me).. Yes, I have changed medications and am now on prestiqe and abilify but I am going to credit this turnaround of my mood and anxiety to GOD.. But I cannot totally throw out the change in medication either as this is a very new drug, one that treats two chemicals in the brain instead of one..

The past two Sunday's at White River Christian Church I went up to our pastor at the end of services and he gathered the elders and prayed over me.. I feel guilty at times for always praying about myself but in order to take care of my family and friends I need to get myself right first, and I sooooo believe I am getting there... I still have oversensitivity issues with certain things but, in general, my overall well being and mood is just 100% improved.. here I am at 6:07 Am on January 21st and i cannot sleep because I'm looking forward to spending half a day with my wife.. She took half of a personal day so we can get some things done.. Yes, most of them involve spending money, but darn it, I just feel good....

Something that is really making me feel good about myself is that I am nailing my weather forecasts... I have to be honest, I want to get things right because it makes ME feel good when people say I did a good job... Whenever you can get compliments on something you LOVE to do, you need to jump in and go for it.. It's very satisfying and self fulfilling.. Even better?? I'm doing these forecasts on my own!!! I'm looking at various data that comes in with each storm and formulating my own thoughts as to what I think will happen.. I LOVE IT!!!

Basketball is going very well.. I'm not patient enough with Katie and Eric... Katie especially, I need to show more patience with her defense and her offensive play.. She could be a GREAT player if she wasn't so darn shy, but that is my daughter and it is her character.. it's something I must accept.. she will break out I know she will, it's just a matter of time.. Eric on the other hand, he HAS talent, he ISN'T shy, he just doesn't listen lol.. But what 7 (very soon to be 8 year old does?)

Overall I just wanted to put out a positive blog post for once and update my....... well next to nill following of how I feel... Hopefully someone will read this and make them feel a little better about their day today.. :) There is always light at the end of the tunnel, if I can make it out of the rut I was in, ANYONE can.... Live your life as you want, it's the only one we are given so we must take full advantage of times like these... Much love to everyone!!!! Here is too a positively ass kickin' 2011... Until next time.....

Ciao for now
Matt....... Out!!!!